My first wife blamed me, even though she had the affair and asked for the divorce. I love my oldest with all my heart, but in all actuality I have not been around him as much as I would of liked for the last 12 years. It pains me to watch my son/sons grow up from a distance. I don't want to go thru this again. Just want it to all go away.
Which is the big thing I can't wrap my brain around with my H. He isn't able to be there for his oldest (he lives in FL) and now wants nothing to do with him. So I don't understand why he wants 2 more to one day grow up and tell him he left a hole in their lives and they don't need him anymore.
W: 33 H: 37 SS: 14 S: 7 S: 3 married 08/09/97 Seperated 11/02 05/07 H moved back 8/26/07
