CVA my H never wants sex, ever. My gal pals think he might be gay its so bad. This is totally out of character for him and skeeves me out since I can barely stand the man right now.
I guess I find it more insulting than most women because we have not had a physical relationship in the past year and his timing to decide he finds me attractive again seems to be reactionary to my leaving. If we had a physical relationship prior the "bomb" then I could understand continuing it. But since he made it clear for so long that I just don't do it for him, I am not eager to resume a physical relationship either. This is why I think he acting like a dope.
H refuses to actually read DR but I am just going to leave it on the night stand and maybe he will pick it up while I am staying at my Mom's. We did not have MC this week but we have an appt Sat AM so I am going to bring up DR and see if the MC can get him to read it. I am also going to bring up this renewed interest in a physical relationship. It just doesn't seem right and I am in no way interested in that right now. Its been 8 months and before that is was a handful of times over several years. I find it creepy that all of sudden he has this interest. Esp with the heaps of insults I have endured in the meantime abt why he didn't want to be intimate ie...I was fat & unattractive.
Yes, I realize now that I NEVER should have brought my daughter to his parents or the bike rally. HUGE HUGE mistake. Again, I did it for her, and he thinks/acts like its progress. Now I am worried that these two concerts we are going to together will totally give him the wrong impression. But its my favorite band so I am really want to go. Wish he would give me the tickets to bring a friend since he is already going one night with a friend. The second show my uncle and my father going to with us so even if I decide not to go with H, I am still going.
Me: 30 EX-H: 37 DD: 5 Separated 6/07. MC for months, EX-H quit MC. Divorce Final 8/14/08. Trying to move on with new life.
