haven't been sleeping lately. Too much in my head. Too much to do. Too much to think about.
Argh- I hate this.
2 more weeks until vacation. Just me and the kids at our family cabin in CO with my parents. Then H joins us to my grandfathers 80th birthday party. (along with the rest of my family- aunts, cousins.....)
That's half of why I'm not sleeping. I don't do family get togethers. Never have really liked them. I feel like an outsider in my family when everyone is together... I try to avoid it at all costs. Love my grandpa dearly- which is why I'm going.
crap. Maybe if I let myself cry for hours tonight I'll sleep better. I don't think I've cried in about a year.
School ends Friday, so maybe next week I'll feel a little bit of relief.
