Man, I feel so exhausted. It's like a nightmare that you cannot wake up from.
Brother I know exactly how you feel....I am still waiting to wake up from my nightmare. I also know how you feel when the pain comes flooding back in, even after you feel like it has been dealt with. It sucks.... Though the intensity of the pain is the same, I have found that it does not last as long or come up as frequent as it once did.
Stop beating yourself up with the "If only..." BS. Your W and my W need reasons for their action of running to OM. I now have been given multiple reasons for my W A and now our D....They need to find something wrong with us, our actions, otherwise they could not do what they are doing in good conscience(As screwed up as this thinking is I think they still believe they are moral).
Andy.... The only thing that we are truthfully being accused of by our W's is that we are not perfect. We know this, this is not news to us. My W thinks that she is doing me a favor by not talking to people about how I have made her feel over the years(at least how she says she now felt during our M). To be honest I would not mind at all if she talked to everybody. I am not perfect, never have been never will be. I was not a perfect H is all she can say. I did not meet her expectations, this is why I was/am neglectful and abusive. Did I ever hit my W? no Did I yell at my W and tear her down? no Was I the perfect H? no.....
We did the best that we could with the information that was available to us. We did not purposely drive our W's into OM arms or did we ever do anything to purposely hurt them emotionally. We are guilty of not being perfect, at least I know that I am.
