NDDT, I agree with Nom, and I do it quite alot, I will write a letter addressed to H and get out all those feelings that bubble up, never send them, it does feel better!
And as far as role reversal, I understand that too, because I am feeling more and more like that myself.
Remembering all the hurt, but I think I need to decide what I want more, and if him leaving is going to get rid of all that pain and hurt, or make it worse!


Me - 44
H - 44
M - 19yrs
together - 23yrs
D16
S8
EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07
H still @ home
Recovered!

"Do or do not, there is no try" Yoda