Stillme & the Plan

[stillme]

Thanks Nomo, Sunny, GD, Kat. . . It's great to have y'all in my corner.

Yep on the idiocy of H's behavior. When did he turn into a moron, I wonder? I feel in danger of falling over the same cliff H has - w/not liking him, not respecting him, def. not loving him and seeing no reason why we should stay M'd. Had to do some serious praying to keep the Going-Down-With-The-Ship idea alive.

An OW! How horribly cliche'! I'm thinking to make an apptmt for the kids to see C today to talk about it. S has said he made a comment to H that S wanted to be the ring-bearer when H & GF got M'd & H said something like "I'm not going there [M]". When D said she thought it was okay that H had a GF, she explained that she needed a mommy at both houses, and a stepmommy would be fun to play w/. Ugh.

Couldn't sleep (go figure, huh?) so I re-read DR and Dobson's Love Must Be Tough tonight. Looking for an angle on this new (to me) development. Guess I'll have to re-work my Goals (esp since any last positives were somewhere before mid-March/move-out time). Thanks for the hugs & encouragement, tho. Gonna try like heck to avoid H's calls in the morning (expect he'll call around 8am to arrange for p/u of the kids for "his" Monday/Tues. but I'm re-thinking that arrangement since he took Friday & 1/2 Sat. "from" me when I was away and apparently feels the need to chastise me about what I had arranged. All's I can say is: Bite Me, H. And the Horse you rode in on.