Gosh, another friend at lunch told me to file for legal separation just as her mom did to protect her custody. I gave her the speech that I wanted support to do all I can to save my marriage. She replied that she loves both me and my H and did not want to take sides but that my H was no longer the man I married. That he was a changed, cruel man who was probably using drugs again. He used before we got married. She said that I should listen to my mom's advice in that he has already started to see other people. It is like a constant blow to my ego. All these messages that I am weak by standing by my man when he could not care less about me or my feelings. Plus, I was in a rush to get home before he got mad. He works nights and gets very grumpy with the kids at a certain time. If I am late he gives me dirty looks and slams the door. My friends said I should never be in fear of a husband. They said they had never seen me frightened before. He is not physically intimidating, just really cranky. He actually weighs 25 lbs. less than me! I told them it was like constantly walking on eggshells.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
