how is it going? I think your lawyer will handle things and make it right.
How was your 4th? I was just checking in to see how thing going? I have been working on our ranch to get caught up. I know what you were saying on how they can make time to do things now but when you ask they always have an excuse or I'll see and it never happens. Hang in there and Hope you have a good day. I think I have to start a new thread mine has locked up.
Had a quick trip to visit my sister for the 4th. She is still trying to "fix" H and me (CONSTANT questions like "did you try ...".Then she started the "fix Matilda" role. She ended with just telling me to take care of myself. Other than that it was fun and relaxing. It is nice to have family that cares.
Spent a restless night "writing" letters to H in my sleep. I don't remember much, but I know I had a lot of questions to ask about why he tried to make me feel it was unfounded jealousy when he was looking elsewhere. Much also had to do with H and D16 (lack of attention from her dad). Wish I could do a better job of getting on with my life. Maybe that won't happen until D is over (and haven't filed yet).
I wonder if writing a real letter to H would be therapeutic?
It may be -- it may help you just get out all of your feeilngs, etc. Go ahead and write away -- you don't necessarily have to give it to him until you are ready!
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
How are doing this week end? Are you making it ok? I am with you on doing a better job of getting along with my life. It is really tough when you have been with someone so long. SOmetimes I look back and think of what I put up with and think why didn't I see it back then. Oh well...The only way to go is forward and we might as well make it better for us and our kids.
Had a rough time after work today. H was here (he and D16 had spent the day together). For the first time since this mess started I actually told H how angry I feel and how disappointed I am that he is already dating and moving on with his life and we haven't even filed for divorce yet. He asked why I thought he was dating and I mentioned the charge for an online dating service on our mastercard bill. Didn't mention the cell phone bill. Or all the money he is taking from the joint account. DUH! It makes me sad that I can't believe him. I so want to call all the unusual numbers on the cell phone bill and ask if they have gone out with him. I know that wouldn't help any except to show I can't trust him or I that I am really am a jealous, paranoid fool.
Need to find that high road again!!!! I'm slipping fast!
