tell you the truth onewish i think i am done. over 7 months a major break through and major pull back. i just don't think in the long run it is in my best interest. depression i can handle, but the fact that her issues are so deep this could be a life long battle. for her to tell my one day she loves me and wants to try and start dating and then the next i am confused and maybe we shouldn't try dating. the way she feels about herself she isn't capable of loving me the way i deserve. whether she is able to come out of it i don't know but it doesn't look like it. she has certainly sabatoged her own happiness. she should be working a normal workday and coming home and chilling by the pool but instead she has decided to work two jobs fulltime so she can afford her life.
she has had counselling but i don't think it was that extensive. i think as big an issue as the abuse is the fact that her mother swept it under the rug, and also her mother abandoned her and her sister several times when they were young because she was binging.
