~BND, thanks. Are you a mind reader? I have to say.. I feel so good but yes underneath this all there is just a feeling of ... uuuggghhh. FRUSTRATION....
I cannot change anyone but me and the feeling bubbling up in me these past few weeks that hubby has been home is one of... I need to let all this ugliness out and I cant cause he is being quite nice and so it is old pent up stuff. I may just have to look into that or YOGA. Right now he is letting me down ( the drinking again) ... he promised to be home in an hour and it has been almost 6.
And you know what I am not terribly angry just more let down. He called awhile ago and said he is getting me a Puppy today... I will believe it when I see it. I am Happy but I am no longer going to hold my breath.... for anything. It just is not good for me. Thanks BND you are a sweetheart. God bless... ~Ali
