Hey all....been a while. LN, you still here? How you doin?
I been avoiding this place...just brings up alot of bad feelings...not that I need help in that dept. I been doing OK... or so I thought I was....lately though, been waking up in tears again. Don't know why really...no real changes in my sitch.
Saw W for my daughters High School graduation...went to her Grams after....quite civil...but no real conversation to speak of. I was feeling pretty good that day...talked with everyone as thought nothing happened....had a good time really.
Couple weeks after that I ( and I know I shouldn't have....don't ask me what possessed me to do this) sent her flowers. Just as a friendly gesture.....didn't say I loved her or anything. She refused them!!! Wow...didn't expect that....oh well...at least it got her to call me...we talked for a while, bout nothing really. She's having a hard time financially ..haha imagine that...
That was my last contact. Court is scheduled for Sept 18. Maybe thats getting to me.....I wish I could do something to stop this from happening....F##K
Anywho....still unemployed. Joined a gym, so that gives me something positive to do. Trying to learn golf...my brother is a really good player....me, I can barely get the swing right...but with a little more practice I should get it. Been hacking up the local courses. Its a lot of fun regardless of my terrible shots. Should've got into this years ago..
Hope you all are doing OK.
If I see you on the golf course....DUCK!! :-)
Cheers
M41 W36 D19 D17 Married 20 Years Bomb Dropped Feb 14,2007...Our Anniversary and Valentines Day
