Sashaying thru Seperation V

[Dr LOve]

hey saffie

12 days no meds. just got back from the clubs. it's midnight here.
was not doing to good today but then andy's sitch took a turn for thr worst and made mine look rosy

husband

[mcojh]

Well not to interupt the hubby/saffie show, but I feel a little better today. Not great, but a little better.

Last night, I watched the movie "Hitch". Kevin James always cracks me up. At first I wondered if a "date movie" was the best thing for me in my mood, but I watched it anyway.

The first 5 minutes were moving. Some of what Will Smith said in the monologue in the beginning actually cheered me up. One line, referred to the fact that if we are out on a date, it isn't my job to get her to like me, it is my job not to mess it up.

[saffie]

Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better today mc.

Over here we have had sunshine and NO rain for the first time in weeks. The temperature is still 'pants' as its only about 20 degrees. Spent the afternoon with my youngest D(9) at her school fete. Don't know if you have tombola stalls in the good old US of A but they can be mind numbingly boring and it was so bad that I and two of my girlfriends fixed the prizes so that we won all the wine on the stall!!!! Should be a good night but maybe a fragile morning tomorrow.

Try to keep smiling mc

Hugs

Saffie

[theoden]

MC,

Cheer up. You are a great man doing a great job.

--Theoden

[mcojh]

Last night we went to the outdoor concert. 102 degrees and humid when we got there. CW was dressed very hot. She had a tank top on with a light shirt over it. I gushed at her apprarance when I picked her up. When we got to the parking lot, she took the top shirt off. She said she didn't want to, because I would be staring at her. I told her that I would do my best, but would guarantee nothing. We had a good time. I had 5 beers in a short period of time. Usually I would have felt a buzz, but I think I was sweating it out as fast as I put it in.

During one song, the singer said for everyone who is in love to raise their hand. Holy awkward moment Batman. I was standing slightly behind CW at the time and she slyly looked over her shoulder at me, smiling. I raised my hand and she replied, "whatever" with a playful laugh. Throughout the evening, she/we were playful with each other and I touched her back lightly and other minor contact. One of the wise DB women suggested easing into contact and it seems to be working.

On the way home, we discussed church today. We agreed to talk in the morning to see who was going. This morning, the boys were tired and didn't want to go along. I told CW I would pick her up on the way. When I did, she got in and as we pulled out, she said, "do you think this is confusing to them? Us going to church together?" In my head said, "Confusing....Confusing....How the F could this situation be confusing." Out loud I said, "I don't think so". That was the end of it. I should point out, CW was dressed very nicely this morning, in a provacative top, that I have to admit, I could see into when she sat next to me.....

I am smiling and waving, confused as ever.

[mcojh]

On goes the craziness. S6 had his last ball game tonight. It had been raining. CW called about 45 minutes before the game to see if it was still on. It was at that time. About 20 minutes before the game it started to rain hard. As soon as the game was cancelled, I called her cell to tell her. I had to pick up trophies and then was going to pick up S6. She was mad at me because she left for the game and it was cancelled. Why didn't I just cancel it an hour ago. (Evidently I am psychic). I just blew it off and went about my business.

[SuperDad]

MC,
Next time something like this happens, try reflecting back what she says. Like "Yeah it is frustrating that it was cancelled at the last minute."

She is not mad at you, just expressing her frustration. She is looking for someone to sympathize with her and she is choosing you!

Keep up the good DBing!

SD

[Dr LOve]

Hey MC

BTDT, My W blamed me for everything. My son forgot his jacket as school my fault. She can't find something I have never seen, my fault. I cooked dinner and when she got home she was planning something else for dinner my fault.
I think it was just what ever is inside of them trying to find stuff to convince themselves that we are bad. I think we must actually be pretty good if you have to look that hard to find something bad.

Husband

[theoden]

MC,

SuperDad has a point.

It's not craziness. It's normal crankiness.

Remember -- everything she does that gives you negative feelings doesn't necessarily flow from her MLC/affair. Sometimes we just get cranky.

-Theoden

[mcojh]

Yeah you guys are right. An oddity for the day, CW called this AM and asked to talk to S6. She did it in a playful nice way. We ended up talking for about 5 minutes before I got him. What is odd about it is she hasn't made the morning "have a good day" call for about 2 months. S6 and I are going fishing tonight and CW asked if we were still planning to go. We are going no matter what, but I told her I wasn't sure, because I got the impression she was going to ask where we were going.

She also reminded me that it was a friends daughter's birthday today. We are her Godparents. Odd that she is starting to act like a mom to me somedays.