Sparkles!!! Those kids get the virtual hugs from the titi's every day
W was here again yesterday, I stayed out of the house choosing to finally paint my Jeep instead. I was doing the final prep on the body when my GF called, I took the call on my garage phone and sat in the sun while we chatted, I noticed W watching me from a window a couple of times during the call. When I got off the phone I went back to work on the Jeep. I think W came outside 20 times in a couple of hours, I have no idea what she was doing but she was looking at me as she did it. When she left she couldn't even look at me because I was looking back at her.
She admitted that her pregnancy still hasn't sunk in yet, that she is still in a shock over it. This is definatly having an affect on her, she is a much different person now, but for how long remains to be seen. She again wondered aloud why I am such a nice guy about this when everyone else is hating her. I told her I like to find out the why of things and she knows that I research answers. I told her I looked into the why of what happened and that I couldn't hate her for something that could happen to anyone, that got me a tiny sad smile.
The best I can hope for is that she can get through some issues before the baby is born, I just can't imagine the upbringing that poor kid is gonna have.
I am surprisingly good though, no anger, no sadness, no feelings for her at all. I guess I've detached pretty good to not feel and it's all good in my books. Life from here on will be much better for myself and the kids, we are quickly getting back to normal and living life to the fullest
