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I have had way to much time on my hands this last week. The good thing about that is that it has given me some much needed time to think, and figure out myself and what I want. Most parts of what has been going on is good she has given me many little signs that she is not done. That I am happy for as I do want it to work. With all that has been going on I do see a lot of errors in my approach and thought process. Thru-out this whole episode, no matter what I think or do, it has been for her, to make her happy, to do anything and everything to make it work. Well even with her little signs, not much has changed. I am going to continue having hopeful thoughts and I do not plan on doing anything to really screw things up. But with this time, I realize I am losing myself a little bit each day. I am changing that, I have been having a life, but not living a life for the last couple months. That changes today, and everyday forward. I am no longer going to be waiting for the phone to ring, for the knock on the door, don't get me wrong, I still want that, but I am not waiting. My life starts today, everything is going to be for me and my sons, the only thing I will not do is look for anyone to be a part of my life, that is still reserved for her and that I can wait for till she figures out her life. But no more feeling worried or sorry for myself, I do not deserve that anymore. Well that is enough rambling for now, I shall return tonight and be one happy camper.

Have a good one everyone.

Good Luck All