BIG TUNA still here

[big_tuna]

thanks.OF..you are right on the mark....it is torture(especially this far down the road ) for me to see her and hope for the epiphany soon....you are right its probably not coming soon....tonite i met her and S8 down by the river at a restaurant on the back deck for the fireworks...i sorta invited myself....wanted to see S8 and her too i suppose...but she hugs and kisses me like an old friend not like someone shes loved and shared the last 23 years with...because i still love her and still do not understand whats happened- these types of get togethers are pure unadulterated torture for me...as hard as it will be i must seek out those new horizons you allude to...after the fireworks she dropped me at my car and headed back to her apt. with S8 and i went out solo for a drink..im waiting for S16 to call me to pick him up from his summer job so i figured id ramble a little here while i wait.....OF ill re-read your response to my previous post as i value your take on things...thanks to all you guys...BT

jazz_ as far as i can see there is no one else at this point