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Yea, just re-read you thread, I get confused with so many going on.
Well I have not taking no for an answer, she went from moving on, done, never, divorce to where we are today, her thinking. I have not gone dark, and have no plans to, I am thinking gray. I have been pretty darn dark this last week, but only because this is her first vacation without me and she is with her family, I have talked to my son daily but not her at all. That will change tomorrow when they get back to town. My wife use to say 3-4 months ago she didn't want to give me any "false hope", she has not said that in the last couple. So a couple little turn arounds, I will take what I can get. I have not asked her to go to counseling but once since the beginning of all this and got a flat out NO, but I did again a couple weeks ago for Retrouvaille and that was last week and only because it was coming up in our town. Her response this time was not yet, another little difference that I will take.
I have had the feeling that it is not that she doesn't want to, I believe she is afraid that if she does I may hurt her again by drinking, so with that in mind I keep thinking she has some pre-set time of me not drinking so she can actually believe it herself, could be wrong and I have no clue how long that would be for her. She also made the comment a week or so ago that she does not have any plans for filing for a divorce, not sure what that is suppose to mean, but she keeps giving me just enough to keep me semi-happy, or enough to hang myself with, only time will tell.

Well thanks for your info.

Good Luck