In need of help

[sadhearted]

For me I've always been a home type person. Even before my H. So for me to go out all of a sudden and do things is weird.

My H will talk to me for a little while then decide oh wait I shouldn't be doing this and back off for awhile. But he always starts talking again. It's like he can't help himself. And when he got a new job offer and put in his 2 week notice it was me he was telling how scared he was and all...

Yeah when he told our kids he said that we were taking a time out. And then last time the kids came back from his apartment my S7 was just kinda talking and he said daddy is afraid to come home. I said huh? Did daddy tell you that he said yeah. Apparently my son was asking him about coming home and that's what my H told him.... It wasn't I'm not or I can't or I don't know if I will it was I'm afraid.

So yeah it made sense.

As much as I'm hurt and upset it kills me when I think about my kids having to go thru this and possibly a D. We're supposed to protect them and there's nothing I can do but hope and pray my H decides he wants his family.