In need of help

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I actually am having a life, I had a life when I was with her, so the only thing at the moment that has changed is we live in different apartments for now. I think, at least in my situation is that she is not trying to hurt me, but at same time I don't think she has a clue to what I am going thru. Still when I do see her, I still feel like she is talking to someone behind my me so I keep wanting to look back to see who is there. I am so tired of not hearing from her, it has now been over a week, she comes back to town tomorrow and have no clue to how she is going to be when she finally sees me.

One thing that I am not sure gives me hope, or makes me angry is what she says to our son. He is always asking me questions as in, do you love mom, are you going to try and be with her, etc... I know she gets the same type questions, that neither of us can help, I just try to make him feel comfortable and loved. I answer as honestly as I can and it usually goes along the lines of we are trying, we just can't be together right now, blah blah blah, that is all I can do since I really don't know.
But, he has asked a dozen times over the last couple of months with both wife and myself in the same room. Her response is always about the same, "I love your daddy" or "I am trying honey". So what makes me mad is that he does not know the meanings of love, so he takes that every time as that she loves me and we will get back together, or when she says she is trying he also gets hopeful. If she does and is trying I am happy she is saying that, if she doesn't know or is still thinking divorce she is just playing a game with his head, even if she is not trying to do that.

Not sure if that made sense in words.