In need of help

[sadhearted]

Yeah it's like your walking on egg shells because you don't want to screw up but you want to do something to make your spouse think. I have a really hard time with the going dark. Course for the past week he's emailed me every day but one and we even managed to joke around some yesterday. But then when he came to get the kids it was like he couldn't get away fast enough. Later he told me he was having a rough time....

I think they're hurt so they try to make us hurt as much as possible. I know I let my H down and I feel terrible about that but I'm working on myself. I just need my H to decide to try again. Since I can't control him I just have to keep working on me. I do agree though if they don't know what they want they should give it a shot.

I tried to GAL today since he has the kids this weekend.. That didn't go so well. I can't go anywhere without it somehow being tied to him or us. I ended up coming back home more upset then when I left.

It always helps for me to talk to other people because even though no one knows what's going to happen I can calm down and leave the conversation in a better place then before.