BIG TUNA still here

[big_tuna]

old fool....ive said it before and ill say it again...you are no oldfool...your input ALWAYS appreciated and i have to say i agree with you again.....she is toying with me so bad.....one day she says ILY and the next is a distant colossal b****...its killing me to still love her and have hope that she will she will wake up and realize her mistake....her rollercoaster is even worse these days....for example on 7/4 she called me 14 times!..i counted ....then other days no calls or contact...when i look at her and talk to her its as if she is hollow inside....you are right..its been over 1 year and we are divorced so its time i really try to move on and act accordingly....in some ways i feel better each day but i always have this nagging question that continues to haunt me....WHY?...in the courthouse parking lot 79 days ago the day of the D we cried together for 30 minutes or more and she said "there are so many things i need to tell you"...i of course have stated then and since that i would love to hear them so while i try to move forward part of me is dying to know if she has any rational expanation for the meltdown that destroyed my family...maybe ill never know huh?....OF/Jazz/Catfan/sep4n/maris/ et al. im still here praying for you guys and i welcome your comments and input as i continue to try to move forward with my life...thank you all...BIG TUNA