I was thinking late into the night and realized that this is a baby step. I think she may be peeking out and I hope she sees that I harbor no ill will towards her. If she is waking up I think it's way too early, she will have to do it all over again. I was also thinking of the jealousy that my kids may feel when the baby is born and of the jealousy the baby will probably have when it grows up.
I am going to keep the course of being friendly because of the kids but I find it sort of tough because I look at her and there's nothing, I am not even feeling like I do when I see a friend. W has a long way to go to repair a lot of damage.
I did talk to my L and she says I am safe with the LS because of the wording we used but she felt as I do it's time to push the big D forward.
It's amazing the extreme damage that a human being can cause.
