It is good to take a break from parenting and play catch up in other aspects of life.
I hope you are focusing on YOU and getting your life back. As hard as it is, you need to get out and start enjoying yourself until one day, YOU DO feel good again.
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I must let her anger and hate bounce off. I must not let her actions and comments control my emotions.
Absolutely and if you need to wait 24 hours to respond, then do it. Be the better person and of course don't let her cross the boundary.
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Nothing more to report. Feeling stuck again. I just want it to end. I just want to live again, to start over, and to get past this feeling of failure. That must become my focus. It will.
Get out and have some fun. Once you do, you will realize that you are alive and can have fun without her.
As for failure, the marriage failed but you are not. As Teddy Roosevelt said "It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed." You wanted to try to make things work but it is your W who is the failure.
Focus on YOU and you too will come through this a better man.
Hugs, ISLH
Me: 49 - S22 & S26 H: 41 - No kids M: 10/00 Bomb New Year's Day 2006 H living w OW 01/07; have baby 12/07 D final 07/07 Thread #9 - Hope Lives On