Sashaying thru Seperation V

[mcojh]

Really struggling with the whole thing today. I feel like I have been giving 110% to our M and haave nothing to show for it. CW called this afternoon to come pick S6's baseball uniform. Initially I told her that I would drop it off tonight if I went to run some errands, otherwise she suggested I could do it tomorrow morning. She was relatively chatty etc, but she never asks me about my day or what I am doing. That bothers me.

I called S15 a few minutes later to talk about the bball game that had just ended and while we were talking, she suddenly decided to run over and pick up the uniform.

The whole encounter was weird. I don't know why all of a sudden she needeed to do that.

Later on, I was getting my oil changed, and S15 called me. He mentioned that CW was shopping and going to get the oil changed in her van. I had given her a coupon for the same place I was at, and they were closing in 5 minutes. To be nice, I called her to tell her that they close early on Friday's. She sounded weird at first on the phone until I told her why I was calling. Then she seemed appreciative. I can't help myself, but I asked her where she was.

She told me and God help me, it took all my strength to not go spy on her.....what is wrong with me. I was doing so well for a while not worrying about her wherreabouts and now today I about lose my mind. I made it 1/2 way to the store she said she was going to and then turned around.

Why am I getting like this. She has every opportunity in the world to see the FOM and all of a sudden, today I freak out.