NikkiB #17

[NikB]

Hi everyone - don't have much time to post right now but just wanted to check in and let everyone know I haven't fallen off the face of the earth!

I will post more details and catch up with everyone later, but in a nutshell I'm still riding the rollercoaster.. very big high on the 4th followed by a big ol' dip last night (my fault).

I've read about how the WAS sometimes pulls back a bit after a really good interaction. Now I'm starting to realize that I have come to "expect" it and end up sabotaging myself a bit. It's a brand new realization so I haven't really "processed" it yet but my first thought is that the pulling away is "easier" for me if I do something to cause it and then can blame myself for it. As opposed to H just doing it for what appears to me to be no reason. If that makes any sense. Something else I need to work on, for sure.

But the 4th was great, best day we've had in a very long time!! So I'm excited about that.

Will post more soon!