It pleases me much to hear that you are doing better. When we are faced with something new, there is always some fear. But you went and look at you. Your attitude is better already. And great that you have another appointment.
Get the books, read them, and pay attention to the message which is to control what you can and not to worry about the things you can't. Be the best you can be and no matter what happens, you will be ok.
