Some of it is DB, some is just me. No, I can't handle having her here with me if she is continuing the affair. I don't really feel bad about that, even though I know it isn't helpful.
The "strictly business" comment was a protective measure, but I could alwys claim I am attempting the "after the last resort" measure if it makes you feel better. Doesn't make me feel any better, but whatever.
I don't want him driving her back because I don't want him around my son. The guy's a scuzball, simple as that.
Current update: Slept about 3 hours last night, in more pain than I have been in a while. Went to work this morning, sent her a text around 8:30 that said "I'm sorry I unloaded on you last night. I hope you are doing well." No immediate response. Around 10, I called MIL to talk to son, she told me he was still asleep (even though I soon heard him in the background). She then lit into me and eventually told me that I care more about the house than I do about my son ( I believe she is tired of having her daughter in the house, and has conveniently forgotten that I asked her to stay here and work things out, and that MIL offered for them to stay. It's all my fault, of course). I didn't rise to the bait, but it really hurt. I wanted to tell her that I love her daughter, that I am trying to save my family, and I couldn't give a sh*t about this house. But I couldn't, because I know she will probably never be on my side, at least not for a long time.
I really don't care about the house, and don't see any option but to sell it if I can. I do have a problem with leaving the house to W, as I am pretty confident that there will be another man in it before my side of the bed is cold, and (my weakness, I admit) I just don't want my son to be confused about who his daddy is.
Anyway, about 10 minutes after I got off the phone with MIL, W responded to my text with "Me too".
I am alternately hopeful and despondent. I'm putting the bravest face on that I can, and I know W is really trying in her own way.
I'll be as patient as I can, I really will. However, I do have to set some boundaries for myself. No apologies for that, and if it doesn't work, it doesn't work.
