It is finally out, he wants a D

[sadhearted]

Yeah sometimes when they talk they can really sound hurtfull. The thing I keep trying to think about is you aren't supposed to believe what they say. Cause their feelings are just as up and down as ours.

My H will pick up our kids tonight and have them thru Sunday so I'm trying to figure out what to do this weekend. I've been trying some 180's and not talking unless he talks to me. And then I'm trying to keep the conversation away from us. This week he has emailed me every day but Wednesday. This whole week he's been making comments like he's been thinking but not as obvious as he may want to come home. His latest one being since we live in 2 seperate places one of us must be difficult. He never brings up wanting a D or how we're getting one. And since I've stopped pushing him I haven't heard how he can't come home or we can never be together again. Who knows. I take it one day at a time and hope that he is thinking.

Yeah AS IF can be hard but I keep coming back to HE'S the one that keeps talking to me. He said the other day it was weird to be typing to me but on the other hand he was used to it but... When I said something about him sounding confused he said why because for 11 years I was used to you and now I'm not supposed to be.... So I keep hoping and praying one day he'll come all the way around.

Just need to work on us and focus on our kids and get to the point that no matter what the outcome we'll be okay. I haven't gotten that far yet but I'm working on it.