I think that I am going to attempt to get some help for myself. I have a lot of emotions right now and I think that I need to talk to someone about it. I have a couple of names of some therapists in the area.
She worked a double last night so I did not see her except for very short time this morning before I left for work. She came and got right in bed. It was 8:00am and she had worked since 3:30 yesterday afternoon. We did have a fairly pleasant interaction yesterday before she went to work. I talked to managing partner yesterday to fill him in a bit on the situation. He was very understanding.
Thank God it is Friday. I think I need the opportunity to just spend some quality time with her. I miss her so much. I miss everything that our relationship was. I really hope that she gets to an IC that is going to really help her. How do I get her to be more open with me? I want to be here for her to help her. She did open up quite a bit on Wednesday morning. I just hope that she feels comfortable talking to me. I'd really like to go to MC right now. She doesn't think that she can do it. I don't understand why. If part of her unhappiness is because of our relationship, if the MC could help our relationship, wouldn't that alleviate some of her unhappiness? But she tells me that she needs to straighten herself out first before she can work on the relationship. God, I really miss her.
