I think talking will help you more than you think. just like talkin here you will have the advantage of hearing yourself say things and have feedback. I guess I have been following your sitch because you remind me of the image of the wife of my wife's OM. Talk it out with someone, I can assure you that you can;t say anything that they havn't heard. not at all that your problem is generic, there are very common themes that come up. Either way be as comfortable as you can, and be honest with yourself. check out what I have been going through and the advice that has been given in "repost try again".
Good luck to you and Gods speed i remembered you in my prayers just this morning.
