Babies are beautiful and innocent. I am 42 and always wanted another child but H ran out to get snipped. I would gladly "tie myself up with a baby".
Please try to look at this from the point of view of that poor child. You could be a wonderful father to him/her if you wanted to do that. You may think this is a tragedy for your other children but it is not. Children that age love babies and this could enrich their lives. They will have another sibling.
I can only imagine how much this hurts you, but please consider keeping an open mind on this.
Me45 H45 D13 S10 together-23 years married-21 years MLC Divorced 10/3/07 Married to a wonderful new man.