For me the silence was death drawn out over time. [...]She thought we were having a wonderful day.
sounds like you're focused on what you want out of the relationship, and want to make yourself happy.
thing is, what's going to make your relationship great, is if you both want to try to make the other person happy.
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She was quick to point out to me to enjoy what I have, what she can give right now.
listen to her.
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I want so much more and I can see it in her, she does too.
you may, or may not, be right. the thing is.. if you ARE right... she needs to get acclimatized.
erm.... shall we say "foreplay"? (cough)
you cant just "jump right in". you have to make her comfortable.
you are so lucky.... she's giving you a chance. Even after your big blowup.
Do whatever is equivalent to a "cold shower" for you, and cool off.
you do not need to go dark. I think you need to learn patience, and learn happiness that stems from making her happy. If she's not seeing anyone else right now... you have a lot to be happy about in that area.
My current status: june 2006. Wife ran out and filed D. Finalized Jan 11, 2010, after 12.5 years M. 3 wonderful sons caught in the middle
