Lets just say I was ready to call him up and tell him we needed to get everything taken care of. I was ready to call it quits. No reason other than I was home alone, depressed and bored.
I did the smart thing by not calling him or texting him. I sat back and let the enemy take over but then fought him off when I finally got my strength back.
When I picked the girls up from his place, I called to joke with him about something (regarding a remark made by him to the kids), and he was full of laughter and so, the enemy was vanquished (for the time being).
I am just taking things slowly today, trying to get my head back on straight.
Lets just say I was ready to call him up and tell him we needed to get everything taken care of. I was ready to call it quits. No reason other than I was home alone, depressed and bored.
I did the smart thing by not calling him or texting him. I sat back and let the enemy take over but then fought him off when I finally got my strength back.
When I picked the girls up from his place, I called to joke with him about something (regarding a remark made by him to the kids), and he was full of laughter and so, the enemy was vanquished (for the time being).
I am just taking things slowly today, trying to get my head back on straight.
Great Job, T2.... the enemy really is under our feet.
It's keeping the slimy b*s7#^d under there that gets us down sometimes, I think!
You managed to turn it around on him!!!!
T2 gets the gold star today
Hope the rest of day goes just as well!
~lost
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Lets just say I was ready to call him up and tell him we needed to get everything taken care of. I was ready to call it quits. No reason other than I was home alone, depressed and bored.
I did the smart thing by not calling him or texting him. I sat back and let the enemy take over but then fought him off when I finally got my strength back.
When I picked the girls up from his place, I called to joke with him about something (regarding a remark made by him to the kids), and he was full of laughter and so, the enemy was vanquished (for the time being).
I am just taking things slowly today, trying to get my head back on straight.
Fair enough T2, and we all go through those phases where we sit and think man this just sucks and why the hell am I doing this. It's getting through those periods with strength and dignity that helps them pass easier each time.
I know it's still tough on you, but you are doing great......
I didn't do anything Jazz.......that is why it was so hard. For once I was just too depressed to get up and do anything. I just sat there and gave up for the moment.
I am working my way back. It is taking a little longer this time.
A few months back H got the Poison CD and was listening to "Every Rose Has A Thorn" so I put that on my cell phone as a ringer. I used that ring tone to set the alarm on my cell phone last night. The funny thing is, after waking up to it, as soon as I got into the car and turned on the radio, that song was playing. That gave me a little inspiration for the day. Things will be fine.
I still have hope. My mind is just a little clouded right now. My cousin that has been separated for only a few months is already dating again. So is her STBXH. One minute she was working on DBing and the next, she is dating. I don't understand this. I have thought about letting go and moving on with my life but I can't see it. I don't want to be with anyone but H. How can someone be married for 15 years, have 2 kids and just throw it away like it never mattered? I am so confused right now.
