Thanks for the reply. She did come home today before she left for work so I did see her. When she came in I just said I am sorry. She said that it was okay and we hugged. I could tell that she had been crying. It pains me so much to see her like this. I can see that she is struggling and I just want to do everything I can to try and help her.
Regarding the drinking, that was one of the things that she said she wanted me to change. I have been, hadn't drank since April. I don't believe I have a drinking problem but out of respect for her and her concerns I told her I would not drink anymore. Yesterday was just a very hard day for me. The 4th has always been special for us, since it was the day I proposed and we always make a big deal of the holiday. I feel terrible about drinking, but it helped me to put some of this situation out of my head for a bit.
I know that I need to work harder at GAL. The relationship just seems to be so close to breaking that I have a hard time concentrating on anything else. It seems like everything that I have ever hoped/wished for is slipping away. I want to have kids, I want to have a family, but now I think that may never happen.
I am meeting with the managing partner today at 5. I sent him an email today just saying that I am having some personal/marital issues and that I needed to fill him in on some things. I told my wife that I was meeting with him and she got really concerned. She said that she was afraid that I was going to do something irrational like quit. I don't know why she cares so much since she doesn't take much interest in anything else I do. I think that she would feel terribly guilty if this situation affected me professionally. I hope my boss is as understanding of the situation as yours.
Yes, she does get her haircut in Mass. She grew up there and can't change her hairdresser so she goes back there to get haircut or any spa appointments. We live in NY, but I went to college in MA which is where I met her.
