H kinda came outta the dark, but he's gone again

[Ophelia]

Are you comfortable with the emails? Would you prefer making eye contact or hearing him on the phone?

I haven't seen him or spoken to him in 6 long months. Doesn't that sound completely absurd?! I think I'd be so in shock if I got a phonecall, or if I saw him, that I'd just be struck dumb. I would pretty much kill for that kind of contact though. Mind you, on the other hand, if we spoke in person, even once, then the emails may end because the whole flow of the conversation we've got going would have been mucked up, so mabybe I don't want to see or speak to him again afterall. I dunno.

You know, I haven't changed the message on our answering machine, because it's his voice, so I'm clinging to it in case it gets to the point where I don't remember what he sounds like anymore, so that I'll be able to call my home number and hear his voice again. How tragic is that?

Speaking of the answering machine, someone called and left a message for him today. The receptionist at the podiatrist's office, confirming his appointment for 3pm tomorrow. Guess he forgot to tell them not to try calling him here when he made the appointment.

I still haven't replied to his last email. I still don't know what I'm gonna say about the legal forms crap.