Hi ROOT- I am so sorry about your dog. I have a dog and I know how devastating it would be to lose him. It would be like losing a friend.
What have you tried to get your husband to open up to you? Since this is something that has been on going, have you read anything about communication? I know it is not an easy thing and it can be very uncomfortable when you know that there are things that aren't being said that need to be. You are still in counseling right? Will he open up there? Communication is so important so why do some people try to avoid it?
I had a difficult couple of days. It was our anniversary on Tuesday and my husband's birthday yesterday. I left him a couple of very generic cards and a generic gift at his office. I did not recieve (and I didn't think that I would) any acknowledgement of our anniversary from my husband. Apparently he had gone "home" sick from work on Monday and even ended up at urgent care. I sent him a text yesterday to wish him a happy birthday and he said he hadn't gotten out of bed or had anything to eat since Monday. I just keep thinking that when something like that happens, wouldn't it make you realize that you don't want to be alone? I am so fighting the urge to call him today. I have been moving so there is plenty for me to do to keep busy and distracted. I have to just try not to think about it.
While moving, I keep come across cards that he has given me over the years and they make me want to cry. I just found a Valentine's day card that he signed like this "I am so lucky to have found you and to have you in my life. I love you and I appreciate the time we have together. I want to be with you always. Love H". How did we end up like this?
