Lin, Thanks for your thoughts. I agree that moving on doesn't mean moving on to someone else. I have no intentions of getting involved with anyone until my D is finalized. My H did that and he has successfully ruined his marriage and his life (at least for the time being). I have been holding out going out on the local scene because of my H. We live in a small town, and I was protecting him. I was still hoping to reconcile with him, so I avoided that scene because I thought if people didn't see either of us, it seemed less real, less questions, etc. However, I also believe that me not getting myself out there has caused my H to believe that I am just waiting around for him to come back. At this point, I give my marriage about a 5% chance of working, so I am going to do things for myself and myself only. He hasn't considered my feelings in 8 months, so it's time to move on. If he wants to reconcile, he is going to have to win me back. I think that I am worth it, but if he doesn't, I'll eventually find someone else for now it's all about having fun and renewing my confidence in myself.
Husband, Don't worry you didn't make me feel bad. You are right no one is lucky on here. We are taking what life deals us. This isn't what I expected, but whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I will be able to start over in my life with a whole new outlook and hopefully eventually find someone that appreciates me for me. I am still young enough to start over, but I think that I have one thing up on a lot of other people my age. I have had to deal with a lot of things in my 20's that some people never have to deal with, but I am going to make sure it makes me a stronger, better person.
M:28, D finalized: 8/28/07 Current Thread
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."
