terrible back slide today. she came over for my moms bday party and it didn't go well. when leaving she gave me a hug and said she is sorry. then she will go out if i want to but doesn't want to lead me on. f u . don't do me any favors. i had a couple or more then a couple drinks in me and i deff. opened my mouth. i just couldn't take her back tracking on everything that happened last wed. last wed. all happened because she had a bad day at work and was weak.
now what do i run for my life or do i do what i have done and basically what she admitted to last week and realize she says alot of things trying to push me away. she admitted she represses alot and goes into denial. she is as open as one can be one day and now i think she flat out lies to my face a week later. on sat. she was very confused and on wed. all of a sudden she has all the answers. i beginning to look and feel like an idiot for even still being consumed 7 months later with a nut job.
