Naw. A lesson learned,it is easy to screw up. She is confused and hurting just as bad as you. Apologize and then move on. My wife is putting me thru the living hell and I don't know how much longer I can take it either. I said some extremely hateful things to my W and I now regret everyone of them. Our time line and sitchs are almost the same. It is all I can do to not just say F***it. I will give it till the end of the summer and then thats it. She has 60 days and then I'm through.