I did write my husband a letter. It was just easier this way. That way I didn't cry and think my emotions and words out carefully. I at least did confess about the flirting. How him pushing me away makes me feel vulnerable. How him never showing me any attention makes me start thinking about looking elsewhere. I told him it didn't excuse it. I know it's wrong. But I let him know I am really hurting and really messed up right now.
Him he hasn't mentioned a thing. Mind you he has been working long hours since the letter. But he hasn't said one word about it or tried to call me or anything. Only a guess here. But am willing to bet he comes home and MAYBE wants to make love. He thinks if he does that he never has to face anything ond that sex makes it all better. Well, I am not up for that. I don't feel connected to him at all.
