Thank you Grace and Breton. Yes, it is about anger and about boundaries. Need to master both. I am reading "Facing the Fire" which I was told is the best book about dealing with anger. I read the beginning and stopped because now it's turn to do the exercises. I am gathering courage to do it.
I told H that I would not do his laundry due to him being w/ow in these clothes. I am not preparing meals for him as well.
I had some resemblance of peace in me for the last two days in spite that h was meeting w/ow over weekend and our anniversary is coming. I resolved for myself (with the help of reading Faithisbelieving thread) that I would giving h a card for our anniversary. I gave him one for father's day and he said thank you.
My main goal now is to stop thinking about him and concentrate on myself. I also planned to go see my friends out of town so I would not be at home for our anniversary day.
me, h - 40+ m-20+ s, d, ss - 20+ s, ow, pa since 04.2007 h back and forth 01.2008 - 05.2008 h decided to be w/ow 05.13.2008 http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1415899&page=1&fpart=1