That's wierd you posted on my thread I was just reading your post about the brain diet wondering if I'm strong enough to do it but decided better not right now.
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Gosh inpain, I wish I could hug you right now
Thank you that is really sweet. Sure wish someone would I could really use a hug. I hadn't thought of it how your IC puts it but yes I can see it could be that. Trouble is I think I've given him the low self esteem because these past 3 weeks since I found the letter I have kept on saying "why can't you just say something to make all my pain go away" and "if I said I was leaving would you fight for me like I fought for you?" I cringe when I think I've said those things but I'm afraid I have. I was in a lot of pain when I said them and now it has made him doubt things and I can't take back what I said and I'm in even more pain than ever. It sucks. He is still at work - a 10 hour shift but thankfully only 2.5 hours left to go - if he finishes on time. Although I don't know why I'm counting it down as though its the end of my misery when he gets in because I'm sure it won't be I'm sure he'll still say the same things. The really odd thing is he seems to think the things he's saying are reassuring???? How is I don't think I'll leave but I don't know for sure reassuring? He even said the dreaded "its not you its me" sentence before he left for work. Mmm seem to remember hearing that EVERY time I've ever been dumped.
