It has been a VERY long up & down week. WAH-MLCer was out of town w/guys having fun, while I'm at home woring & holding down the fort. (at least OW was not on the trip, but who knows who he might have met out there)
I am begining to have anger issues again & need help.
WAH-MLCer is being VERY selfish AND self-righteous. One day he is nice & helpfull & then the next the complete opposite.
This is so very hard to stay the course. It is so hard not to snap & "fight back." Like the old me would.
WAH-MLCer is still not really working, living off of family money, spending the day at relative's apartment & not really helping unless it looks good for him.
I'm begining to feel that I am being used. Not only as a housekeeper, cook, child caretaker, but as a whore. I don't feel any connection, and the fact that he won't kiss me, keeps reminding me of the movie "Pretty Woman."
Need to scrounge more $$$ to schedule w/Laurie (DB Coach) But also trying to start my own business while working two jobs.
Thoughts?
MariS
"Going for the Gold & not the Booby prize"
Become the change you want to see.....
Me - 37 WAH - 35 child - 2yrs Separated - August '06 Married - 10yrs, Together 18 Not feeling WAH's internal struggle - Feb '08
