Saffie,

You are welcome.

Let's speak in purely positive terms:

This affair is a gift.

It's a gift to you to help you really re-consider your relationship to prescription medication.

It's a gift to you to encourage you to address your depression more vigrouously.

It's a gift to you to help you realize that you may have lost yourself over the years.

It's a gift to you to help you start living your call to adventure.

It's a gift to your marriage, in that it will help you both correct an unhealthy dynamic that led to this affair.

Don't squander the gift and return to your old way of being -- a way that has proven itself shaky.

--Theoden