OK so now he's saying he knows he loves me but just doesn't know how much. He doesn't think he loves me as much as I love him or as much as he thinks he should do. He says he doesn't think he will end up leaving but he doesn't know for sure. I can't take it anymore I just really cannot bare it. He says he knows we can be happy because we were until I found the letter. He says his feelings are all muddled. I don't understand and I don't know what to do. I feel like I just want to cry and cry until I don't exist anymore because it is just so painful existing like this. I can't even get any support from anyone because I don't want them all to hate him again if it turns out to be just a little blip. And my poor little boy is going to have to go through it all again. I just wish I wasn't here. I wish I'd never found the letter and said the things I've said that have made him doubt his feelings for me. I hate myself and I hate him for being so weak minded.
