Hey matilda-

I See where you are going with this. Sounds good to me. I am getting frustrated again. I don't know why I just can't go along and think of her as my sugar mama. Most of my pay check goes towards the mortgage and I have been spending allot of her money these last few weeks. She has not said one thing about it. I am living through a delicate time in my mind right now because my first W left me with 2 kids 1 week before our 5 year anv. Wouldn’t be a hoot if I screwed this marriage up 1 week before out 17th? I need to detach more.
I am going today to get the watch and I will check on the flowers to see how long I can wait to get them delivered on the Thursday before we leave.
Cades-
I am not expecting ANYTHING from this. Of course I know deep inside I will be a little disappointed if I don't even get a card but I am not going to let it show.
Thanks everyone for your support.
Saffi-

No Meds YET. As for the tattoo how does everyone feel about?

1. Letting the W know BEFORE and maybe asking if she wants to help me pick it out.

Or

2. Just doing it. (Of course I will ask my D.25 to go with me and help me pick it out. I don't want to end up with tinker bell or puff the magic dragon on my arm for the rest of my life.
I sorry for being so swishy washy about this whole AFFAIR. (Nice play on words). But sometimes I feel I can only go on so much longer before I take the plunge that so many of you have and write the final "letter".


Thanks
The psycho husband


And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know