My father has been fighting lung cancer since January. Hospitalized on Saturday. The cancer has traveled up his back into his brain and also has now attacked his liver. Surgery is not an option.
I will be leaving to New York in the next couple of days to go say goodbye to my dad for the last time.
This visit will be very hard. My dad was career military. He was always the strong, macho, hard headed person you'd expect from a man that lived that sort of life.
Now he's almost completely bed ridden. His bones are fragile from the radiation and kimo.
Sadly him and I were never very close until I became an adult. He was a WAS...started up a new family. He traveled so much when I was a kid that I didn't get to see him very regularly. I have abandonment issues from it, I know I do. Him and I have unfinished business. But I am damn well not going to bring it up this trip, suddenly they just don't matter anymore.
Dear God...what weight more can you possibly add to me this year.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
