Well turns out she's only coming to the beach for the 4th because "that's tradition, I spend the 4th at the beach with my friends." She's meaning our close friends. She didn't say family or me or any such insinuation. She's a long way off from ever coming back but she is slow, at 1/1000 of a snail's pace moving.
We did have a hard conversation yesterday morning which had her crying as she left. In it she said "quit pushing me away" and "it's going to take time." She also said "look right now I just want to be friends again." To which I finally responded "then treat me like a friend, quit being dismissive, quit ignoring me, quit holding back what you feel or want to say...friends don't treat each other this way."
We closed yesterday by trading IMs last night like a couple of friends chatting about our evenings and what we were watching. She also said she'd call "us" tonight meaning D9 and me. She actually told D9 last night on the phone to tell daddy I'll call him tomorrow night.
So just another day but a day that I have had a great time with D9.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
