Thanks for the advice - would love for someone to say 'It'll be fixed next week', but adult enough now to understand that I have to work my socks off for the next x number of months to make a difference.
Still doesn't make it any easier and watching the children play makes it all come home even harder.
Using the gym to try and distance myself from it, so I will come out of this healthy, but at the moment feel so scarred.
