Good girl. I think the letter was direct, and respectful in a way that only 2 people who have been through hell and back have the right to be toward each other.
It's said, done and sent.
He knows you have feelings, just as it took you a long to time to realize that he had feelings while you were in the fog. He is not in a MLC fog, rather a fog of forgiveness and healing.
Be patient, kiddo. I know you are. You were protecting your family and your son. He loves that kid, you know that.
Sometimes I wish I could get Jeff and give him a few lessons on how to scream like a banshee at your spouse when you're angry (OK, it's not always been a GOOD thing for me!!)....so he could get those feelings out from the past, open dialogue and maybe move forward. But, he is his own man, and will deal with this as he needs to.....and just like you HAD, in some way, to go through the MLC to deal with your own stuff, he needs to do this too.
Trust that somewhere he's listening. Trust that he's testing. Trust that he has confidence that you can "take this" and are strong. Or else I don't think he would test you as much.
I think that's human nature. To be yourself and see who loves you enough to still stand by your side. Didn't we all do that to our parents (God bless them) during our teen years. Test them, rebel, knowing all the while they would still stand by our side. Maybe this is his reassurance of things, that your love is real, lasting and strong. To see your level of committment to him.
Who knows. Live life and keep standing, girl. God only knows you've been shot in the leg with this before and kept on walking!
