close to decision time don't know what to do

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Well I can't tell you if you have been thru this long enough. But I saw my name mentioned a page back and ended up reading all your threads. You do have the 2 steps forward and 1 step backwards working real well with her, I do not believe that is a bad thing.

One thing I did notice thru-out your threads, you keep repeating yourself about how you know it is not time to give up. Not sure if it is time or not, but I don't think you believe yourself that it is time. Just the other day you were as excited as all heck, then two days later you were ready to move on, that sounds like alot of us in here. I would take those 2 steps forward and 1 step back for a long time as long as they kept comming. I would gather that she may be just as confused about her feelings daily as you are, is it worth giving her the benefit of doubt about that?

And what about the kissing in your last post, I have not had a kiss since end of February or beginning of March, will trade you any day of the week for that. Also sent home from work because she couldn't stop crying, well you have to know she is thinking, that is always a good sign. I always wonder if my wife thinks at all about us, you know yours is thinking.

I guess what I am saying in all this is that you have to do what is best for you and your well-being. Just don't do anything in haste or anger, you have alot of baby steps from your wife that many of us in here would love to have.

One thing that helps me recently is, what if I filed to either get her back, doubt that would work, or to just end it all and the pain. Well in thinking about it, I figure I would not be doing anything different, I know I am not ready to date, I know I am not looking for anyone or having any one chase me. So whether I file or not, nothing changes, so why do it. If she wants a divorce, she can do the work and file, my life would not change. Then again, if I don't, and she has all this time with nothing going on, she might realize I am the greatest catch on earth. "no offense to you other guys, but someone has to be the greatest "

Do what you must do, just make sure it is the right decision for you and what the consequences would be.